Three months, and I learned...

that Mr. A should always have green tea
that Mr. T loves oreo
that Mr. R should always have his red bull

and I learned...

that whenever going to coffee shop,
not to offer Mr.A coffee, because he loves tea more than that dark delight begins with "c"

but

order grande vanilla latte for Mr.R, and cappuccino for Mr.T. They will be very happy, especially Mr.R.

Mood swing is the most fabulous.
Mr. A will need his chocolate, and a toblerone for himself.
Mr. T will need his Oreo (or KitKat), or gummi candies
while Mr.R likes candies the most, then Kit Kat and those light bars.

many many things I learned about them...and from them....

and yes, it is from them that I learned,

....that I love them :)

at the entrance of farewell

I'm staying at Sony's team room today.
He has such a comfortable room to live in
to cry in
to laugh in
to smile at
Why didn't I realize that before?

How I dearly wish I can just fast forward this.
or rewind it all back.
I know it's stupid but I'm glad there's nobody in this room other than me.
I must have look like hell

Naah....
I think I look decent enough,
even now.

But I'm still glad nobody's here
coz I will confuse them.
They would wonder what happen
"Is there anything wrong?"
"what's the matter?"
they will ask me.

and there's nothing I can say to answer them

It's such an unwise thing to consider your team as your family.

It's so unwise to have feelings for them, affection, though apart from love.

How I love my team so much

I can't afford to let them go.

It's a childish feelings, I know, but it would have been so lovely to spend the rest of this day to let them go....to cry as long as possible. So that as tomorrow when I can see them again, they won't get to see this sobbing face. How lovely if on that day I'm already able to consider them otherwise, to not miss, to not long, to think that it's nothing to part. (gee how it sounds like a terrible lie I keep telling myself)

Tomorrow is just another day

and the coming of tomorrow might just mean the nearer I get to the day when I won't see them again. It's been quite some days that I woke up not feeling enthusiastic about the coming day. Because I know that they will not be around anymore.

How funny
At first you think that it is YOU who help them passing the days.
but at the end of everything, ...it's actually THEM who help you getting through the days....that it is almost unimaginable to spend the day without without thinking of them.

and yes. Even AD. I think I too will miss AD (though he's such a flirt! The kind of man you want to runaway from). I'm glad he's not occupying this room right now...'coz if he's here, maybe I would just cry in front of him (though I logically think it's not a wise thing to do).

I'm sooooo....STUPID!

Yet then again I think it's a wise thing to cry here and now, so tomorrow I can be a better person who smiles all day long without feeling so deceitful for smiling on the entrance of farewell. Yes I love them...and so what. They will stay in my mind, for the rest of eternity. And I will still love them, no matter where they are.

Because friendship....is in the heart.

and so as love.

Flashback

Today among any other day that I typed that name on that screen with a big G.

"Kiyomizu"


and there I was, being absorbed into that atmosphere of Kyoto, the atmosphere I feel like I have known for so long...as if being born there...as if it's where I meant to keep going back to.

Those bamboo trees, those surroundings, small shops, small houses, with the sky that is bluer than ever....

and how I missed it so much.
How I miss him.

That tall figure walking with me through those paths,
sitting next to me facing the Sagano river with its orange light reflecting the dress robe of Sunset.

Where he is now, the sky shall know...
What will I say to him if he appears?

"How I have traveled a long way...
just to find out that my dream had come true
....that time when I was by your side."